mellow yellow

Tears in my eyes

Dropping one by one

How I can't believe I've to go through uncomfortable state

Hell yea

I'm falling down slowly,

Wishing everything will go back to the way it is supposed to be

You..

Why do you love to stick with me

What i'm trying to say is

I wish i could just forget and pass my days without you

You've turned my life so blue

In the pouring rain,

I want to enjoy my time

Feeling released without having to worry about you..

All i'm saying,

At these moment,

I can only think about is to be free

To find recovery

To find myself to the place where i belong..

Healing

Resting

Thats surely what i need it right now

*sick and tired

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1. i feel like saying non sense just to make me happy *DROOLIN 0_O

2. im hyper

3. PMS attack, dont try to get near me..im here to bite you

4. ate too much in a day but glad that i drank a zip of green tea to reduce all the fatness

5. im in love but i'm lazy as u can see me blogging at this minute

6. i miss mama

7. i want summer NOW

8. papers are all around my bed plus my two projects are supposed due today but it got extended until tomorrow and the other one on monday..but still,

PROCRASTINATION IS HERE YO!!!

9. what am i doing now? printing "some stolen cheats" that i took when the teacher was away from the classroom

10. listening to andrew garcia cover of straight up when he made to the second audition in american idol

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jbgWSF65aE0&feature=sub

he's in the top 24. im supporting him with all my heart

11. hopefully, i get my summer internship here in united states. done with the job resume, and will be discussing about where to apply with career services tomorrow at 2. please God, lead me the way

12. not in the mood of uploading pictures

• 12. ok GOODNITE EVERYONE :)

QUESTIONNAIRES

What is your favorite song of all time?

untitled - maliq

What are your "comfy clothes"?

large white tshirt and short pant

If you were on Extreme Makeover: Home Edition; what kind of room would you ask for?

a simple comfy room

Whats the First Thing You Notice In A Boy/Girl?

Their smiles

What language would you like to speak fluently?

french, it is sexy

Are you in love?

i dont think im in love but im falling for someone..*cheesy

How many kids (or any at all) would you want to have?

2 :) and twins

Favorite hot drink?

hot dark choco

Performing Arts, Fine Arts, or Sports?

Sport:basketball

Riding horses or riding dolphins?

riding horses, feels so free and super cool

Do you believe a good life is attainable? or is it something that is out of our control ie subject to luck etc.

absolutely attainable

How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?

dont kill the trees

do you plan in advance

yes i do sometimes.. its more organized

What attracts you most?

how they bring themselves in public, how they smile, how they respect others, how they dress

Do you hold hands when you walk in public?

when i feel like it

Close your eyes for a moment, who pops into your head?

no one

Do you say "I love you" in the relationship?

Yes. when i feel that is the right time to say it

Describe your perfect Sunday morning?

waking up next to someone you wish to have around, cooking and listening to relaxing songs all day..

If you could be successful at any job in the world, what would that job be?

a famous photographer/chef/singer

What makes you cry?

remembering unforgettable memories that cant happen anymore.

What makes you laugh?

bestfriends and you

If you won the lottery, how would you spend your millions?

goin to japan, travel around with mommie and save some

If you could time travel to the past to correct any mistakes you feel youve made would you?

hmm apa ya, cant think of one right now

What do you do for fun?

singing?

Do you own any pets, and if so what do you have?

at this point of time, no..i want some hamsters

Do you have any tattoos, and if so what and where?

plan to get one..but im such a loser

Water or 100% Juice?

wataaaa*

Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?

performance

What is your favorite clothing brand?

at the moment, urbanoutfitters

Most embarrassing moment?

Too many to tell

Where is Waldo?

in his crib i guess

What was your last thought?

shud i sleep now?

Juice and crackers or milk and cookies?

milk and cookies..

Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?

do u really have to ask?

Would you rather be blind or deaf?

blind

Define yourself in 3 words...

FUN,BORING, COOL

Do you eat cold cereal at night?

if im hungry, i would just open my fridge take out some milk and have "yg gambar macan apa yah yg biru"

What is your favorite TV show?

tv series..HAHA

Kill the spider or let it out?

KILL..

Do you shower every single day?

yessss.dooh

Walking past a beggar, spare change or ignore?

share some love

Boat or bus?

bus

Where do you want to travel next?

PARIS, japan, THAILAND

What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out

surely saying YEAAA.WOHOO.

Do you read harry potter books?

NAH, i dislike reading

What is your favorite place?

anywhere in BALI

If you could have one super human power what would you choose?

reading ppls mind

Have you had a beer in the last week?

no, i drank sweet wines

Flip flops or sandles?

I'm a flipper

What do you do on fridays?

sleeping,hangin out or korean-marathon.

How tall are you?

im short -_-

I'm in love with the notes from larissa tmblr..so sweet

tired,exhausted,happy,bored,lazy

my current mood:

TIRED

laying down ,

my stomach is craving for some energy

my eyes are dozed even i slept for the whole 2 hours 30 minutes

after a long long exhausted day of studying from the morning.

okay, i can do it..

its one more day away from being tortured,

then here it goes again my weekend

actually i'm just blurbing all the words,

i have to stop procrastinating

i have all my works waiting to be done.

can actually someone do it for me?

so it will be the greatest gift ever..

l a s t w e e k e n d:

• i hate saying goodbyes, last week i had to say it again to my dearest friend who i met in boston 2 years ago. His name is Rendhika. i remember so much fun when i used to have him around as my "curhat" mate, my 3 dimensi mate, my private driver and a good friend of mine. i'll see you mr, in may probably?Good luck with the destination you are meant to go for back in our home.
• when life seems so thoughtful and always brings you a lesson.. you cant trust someone as if you've known them forever. you might get really connect to them and at the same time they are the ones who hurt u utmost. you must trust your feelings and your closest at first before you let somebody else mess up with yours. life can be cruel, but remember we are the controller. so either you gain or your loss. it is all within you.
• catching up with all the stories that cici elsa have updated me. hanging out with rani and elsa at the same time reminds me like old times.despite the hectic schedule everyone has,at least there's always be one time that we make it work to just spend a moment and appreciate it.
• the sudden trip to NYC. first plan, i was totally excited to have a chance to be with ka elsa. but she was pretty busy and even couldn't miss a minute to spare her time with me. she promised me, she'll visit me sometime around june or august. well well, i hope she wont dissapoint me this time. beside, i met my cousin with all her craziness and her kepo *just kidding. met a new friend, kathy that soon to be mr. tatuhas's girlfriend..haha evil smile
• at last, had the quality time with inchas walking around nyc in the cold weather. thanks to fahmy k and emma for introducing me to belgian waffle, its delicioso.
• pleasing time too with mrs. setiadi after all these times, too hard to make up time with her.
• one recommendation: shuld try prosciutto rissoto at spring cafe.
• see you guys in two weeks.

hello SPRING semester, so much words to share

i've been falling asleep almost all my classes.

this is not a good sign to begin my exhausting semester..

My schedules are mostly on tuesday and thursday:

8.oo-9.15: intermediate accounting 2

9.30-10.45: social contemporary problems

11.00-12.15: financial management *SO NOT COOL, the prof is boring

2.00-3.15: intro psychology

3.30-4.45: organizational behavior

I cant believe i'm going to be stuck for the whole semester in the hectic schedule..

Am i going to survive?

Its only my second day of classes, but i feel like giving up..

Please give me some strength!!

All i can think about is weekend and the next weekend, where i can actually spend doing anything i want, put away my homework and sleep..

I wish i could skip the whole semester, had summer in front of me..

Today is february 26th..

I begin to plan ahead what am i going to do to fulfill my 2010 resolution..

• First, i need to get rid of people who've been playing the drama of their life, acting like no one is noticing.. i somehow have a question to that initial "x", do you really need to hurt others? stop pretending to be nice..stop being FAKE..
• Second of all, i am scared to go forward because i might not have the chance to take it back..I want to be somewhere far in the stage of happiness that ive been waiting for long time..people are always scared of the what-if's that they forget what is..they spend so much time thinking. "what if it doesn't turn out the way we want it to be?" that we stop thinking about things that are already there.

Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on what you are going to take and to do… because what if this is the outcome you’re destined to work yourself with it. You’ve got to man up and know all the hard work is worth it.

Last but not least

Dear God,

please give me ways to handle this situation

to always remind my mom that her daughters always and forever love her to the deepest..

i cant help it but i want to scream to the top of my lung,

to release my anger and hope that i can do something to fix it..

even though, i try to ignore

but whenever it comes to my head, i cant help to let my tears falling down..

i am sorry this is such a mess

i just need to let it all out

Home Sweet Home, Boston

Holiday is almost over, exactly in two days..
i cant believe it flies by, i wish i can extend more days so i can fully rest
is it because im having too much fun and all the excitement for the whole winter break?
i havent been spending much time with my home sweet home, boston...
its not that i dont love you, bean town..
its just the matter of time i have to leave you for a while..
Here i am back finally to reality
Reality that i'm not ready yet to face forward
I have to survive two days of classes in every week from 8 in the morning to 5..
And yes, i'm stuck in the beautiful snow city which is making it PLUS....NOT..
I'm so grateful for everything that's been given until this minute
that i can do just whatever i want to fill up my break
Thanks to Ka dini and Uncle mike for the extraordinary hospitality
The first time in my life to spent real christmas, how i really appreciated that
and I got a Christmas's present next to the christmas tree.
How i never thought that i could have those beautiful moments for a short period of time in Iowa
Not forget to mention, all the goodness and god knows what..
All the handmade dark chocolate cookies, i could eat it all from one big jar
And all the delicious indonesian food which put more weight on me..
Please pardon me with almost every blog related to food food and food..
For the Newyorkers especially all the sherwood memories 4J, living in unforgettable memories where times turned into upside down = morning felt like a night time, and the other way around...
Even thou i didn't really go around NYC for the whole 2 weeks
i still loved it..
Thanks for having me there =)
You guys were my favorite parts
LA, cant say much but its been the greatest of all for the last destination of my holiday..
however, i need to be stricter..
I've been living a hella good life without even thinking how much money that i have left for my holiday's allowance
Shoppping and eating in fancy restaurants
i did enjoy most of it
Spent time with my high-school's best friend
Had all the chances to meet all the people that i wanted to see in the first place
Been eating like a mad pig
Last but not least, i always pray for the best to happen in 2010..
Glad that Rani, my sister is back here in boston
so i'm not a loner anymore..
And you..
You're making me smile every time i think of you =)
I do enjoy my times with you
Thanks for all the happiness
I cant ask for more
Thanks