fairy tales don't exist in the long run :(

i must have thought i was swimming in the pool of heaven

i must have smiled beyond the capacity of denial

i must have dreamed about getting engaged with the most impossibility figure that ive been waiting for long time

i must have felt that it was true until the time knock on me

i must have realized that it didn't look real

how long must i stay in this state of uncertainty

must i give up on the sacrifice ive made?

should i regain my consciousness, so i could wake up and get hurt?