hello SPRING semester, so much words to share

i've been falling asleep almost all my classes.

this is not a good sign to begin my exhausting semester..

My schedules are mostly on tuesday and thursday:

8.oo-9.15: intermediate accounting 2

9.30-10.45: social contemporary problems

11.00-12.15: financial management *SO NOT COOL, the prof is boring

2.00-3.15: intro psychology

3.30-4.45: organizational behavior

I cant believe i'm going to be stuck for the whole semester in the hectic schedule..

Am i going to survive?

Its only my second day of classes, but i feel like giving up..

Please give me some strength!!

All i can think about is weekend and the next weekend, where i can actually spend doing anything i want, put away my homework and sleep..

I wish i could skip the whole semester, had summer in front of me..

Today is february 26th..

I begin to plan ahead what am i going to do to fulfill my 2010 resolution..

• First, i need to get rid of people who've been playing the drama of their life, acting like no one is noticing.. i somehow have a question to that initial "x", do you really need to hurt others? stop pretending to be nice..stop being FAKE..
• Second of all, i am scared to go forward because i might not have the chance to take it back..I want to be somewhere far in the stage of happiness that ive been waiting for long time..people are always scared of the what-if's that they forget what is..they spend so much time thinking. "what if it doesn't turn out the way we want it to be?" that we stop thinking about things that are already there.

Never let the fear of what-if stop you from letting yourself take a chance on what you are going to take and to do… because what if this is the outcome you’re destined to work yourself with it. You’ve got to man up and know all the hard work is worth it.

Last but not least

Dear God,

please give me ways to handle this situation

to always remind my mom that her daughters always and forever love her to the deepest..

i cant help it but i want to scream to the top of my lung,

to release my anger and hope that i can do something to fix it..

even though, i try to ignore

but whenever it comes to my head, i cant help to let my tears falling down..

i am sorry this is such a mess

i just need to let it all out

Home Sweet Home, Boston

Holiday is almost over, exactly in two days..
i cant believe it flies by, i wish i can extend more days so i can fully rest
is it because im having too much fun and all the excitement for the whole winter break?
i havent been spending much time with my home sweet home, boston...
its not that i dont love you, bean town..
its just the matter of time i have to leave you for a while..
Here i am back finally to reality
Reality that i'm not ready yet to face forward
I have to survive two days of classes in every week from 8 in the morning to 5..
And yes, i'm stuck in the beautiful snow city which is making it PLUS....NOT..
I'm so grateful for everything that's been given until this minute
that i can do just whatever i want to fill up my break
Thanks to Ka dini and Uncle mike for the extraordinary hospitality
The first time in my life to spent real christmas, how i really appreciated that
and I got a Christmas's present next to the christmas tree.
How i never thought that i could have those beautiful moments for a short period of time in Iowa
Not forget to mention, all the goodness and god knows what..
All the handmade dark chocolate cookies, i could eat it all from one big jar
And all the delicious indonesian food which put more weight on me..
Please pardon me with almost every blog related to food food and food..
For the Newyorkers especially all the sherwood memories 4J, living in unforgettable memories where times turned into upside down = morning felt like a night time, and the other way around...
Even thou i didn't really go around NYC for the whole 2 weeks
i still loved it..
Thanks for having me there =)
You guys were my favorite parts
LA, cant say much but its been the greatest of all for the last destination of my holiday..
however, i need to be stricter..
I've been living a hella good life without even thinking how much money that i have left for my holiday's allowance
Shoppping and eating in fancy restaurants
i did enjoy most of it
Spent time with my high-school's best friend
Had all the chances to meet all the people that i wanted to see in the first place
Been eating like a mad pig
Last but not least, i always pray for the best to happen in 2010..
Glad that Rani, my sister is back here in boston
so i'm not a loner anymore..
And you..
You're making me smile every time i think of you =)
I do enjoy my times with you
Thanks for all the happiness
I cant ask for more
Thanks

Love is all you need.......

i love youuuu more each dayyy....


can you feel my heartbeat when im close to you?


ha...


ha..


ha.........

-Heartbeat, Tahiti 80

How do you do what you do to me?I wish i knew..

Tell me you'll be there
Tell me you are the one
Tell me you are someone i can count on..

Every time i think of you,
It makes me wanna hug you
Whenever i look at you,
All i can do is smile

Who are you?
Why cant i put away my thoughts from wanting to be by your side
Is it just me?
Do u feel the same way?

I hope everything will be alright
All i want to do is just to be with you
You are in my dream,
That i cant let it out easily
I need to say it out loud,
3 words,
Just so you know
I miss you

p.s: it doesn't mean anything
i just love to write about this gay shit..
it reminds me of one lyric that i wrote over 2 year ago..
its called
"satu harapan"

Satu pikiran ini
Menjalur menjadi angan
Yang membuat diriku terdiam
Sejenak saja kuingin dirimu disini
ooh..

Datang menghampiriku
Berbicara seperti dulu
Pandangamu, Senyumanmu
Canda tawamu

Hari indah tlah berlalu
Dimana kt rasakan hangatnya kasih sayang
ooh..
Andaikan waktu tetap ada
Menungguku
Tetap kuraih dan kuputar
tiada sedih maupun gundah
Yang kumau
Hanyalah dirimu..

Andaikan engkau tau
Kau lah pujaan hatiku
Hanyalah dirimu
Harapan yang kutunggu..
ooh...
ooh..

januari,4 2010

You're in the process of getting over some old injury or grievance that had messed you up somewhat. It's a good time for you to recover your center and figure out what you want to do to get on with life.

this song made me smile in the morning :)

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you

Verse 1:
Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile, it's all about you
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too
Said you'd make my life worthwhile, it's all about you

Chorus:
And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you, yeah!

(Guitar solo)

Chorus 2:
And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worthwhile
So I told you with a smile
It's all about you

It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)
It's all about you (it's about you)
It's all about you baby (it's all about)

it reminds me of something :) , when i read the lyrics and i think of it :D

HAPPY SUNDAY :)

sleepless

"ngantuk
pusing
lemes"
but

im happy :)